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Life is complicated. Your computer and your art has probablyconsumed a lot of Your talent and energy. It's fun and feels good,but there is much more to life. Even art cannot fill an empty person.Our lives are so very important. Let's not miss what's really goingon in our lives.
Believe me, I’ve tried to fill up my life with art andachievement and even various kinds of pleasure, and none of it hastruly satisfied. Whatever I tried was like a cup that couldn’thold water for very long. The initial joy would always drain away.After a while, I just felt trapped. I was working for nothing.Perhaps you know what I mean. We all have pain and desires, and it’stotally valid, but we really can get to the root of it and stoptreating the symptoms. Why
I suffered from sexual addiction most my life, even as aChristian. It doesn’t sound so bad, does it? I became more andmore isolated and depressed until I didn’t feel human anymore.In the Bible, Isaiah says prophetically about the coming Messiah:
Jesus confirmed this prophecy, and said publicly at the beginningof his ministry:
I am convinced beyond doubt that God is good, and He sent his Son,not only to save souls, but to save us from captivity, the captivityof sin. If we sin, we are captive, but He came to set the captivesfree. The first place to start is in the Word of God, the Bible. Godis true. He became a man and showed us His great character on Earth.He is a God of love. He is a God of justice as well as mercy. I’veseen His work of restoration and redemption first hand. I’veseen His love and I’ve seen His judgment. Even that is Hislove, intended to drive us away from the destruction of lies that cankill us. Again, The Bible tells us who God is. He alone containseverything needed to free us. His Word, the Bible, is His word to usthat tells us who He is. If You don’t have a Bible, you canread online atBibleGateway.comor listen to the Bible atwww.AudioTreasures.com.
After 2001, my life crumbled. I ended up living in the wildernessof Southern California for 6 years. I was robbed, bothered by thePolice, taunted and tormented by nearly everyone, yet God was with methe whole way. I could feel his presence, even though I was inrebellion against him most of the time. There was sexual sin in mylife God wanted to deal with. Many times I went without food, but Ididn't starve to death. I thought surely my friends would help me orthe church, but nobody cared. One time I was robbed and I walkedaround 20 miles to the police station. I did this four days in a row,all without a bit of food, and nobody at the station would help me.Later, I saved and bought a bike and I biked hundreds of miles everyweek. I worked on the paint program and the novels the whole time. Atone point, my laptop was stolen, and I had to reverse engineer largeparts of the program before I could move on with development. Thatwas between version 2 and 3, if anyone ever wondered why version 3wasn't a major move forward and why there were so many pluginsreleased for free in-between. It was quite heart breaking.
I self published the first novel while I was working at Thresholddigital. Reviews were good, but sales were non-existent. I stillbelieved God was going to bless it, so I went ahead and started withthe second. While I was at Threshold, I would sleep in the wildernessand bike so somebody could pick me up to drive to Santa Monica.Later, I saved up for a car, but things didn't change much. I lostthat job soon after and haven't worked in animation since. I laterwent to school to study animation and screen writing. Eventually, Iended up having panic attacks as my nervous system continued to breakdown, and I finally gave in and decided to obey God. I picked up aGideon Bible and began to read. What I read terrified me. I didn'treally know what to do, but I knew he wanted me to go to Florida. Ipacked up and went right away.
I was driving for about a day and a half, and I was in terribleshape. I didn't know what in the world I was doing out there. I wasin the middle of Texas, when I was about to give up in despair Iasked God, what am I doing out here? And at that very exact moment, Ipassed a sign on the road. I don't know who put it out there, but itwas just the right thing at just the right time, it read “TrustJesus”
What could be more foundational or to the point than that? TrustJesus.
Find out if God is really who he says he is. Don’t trust therumors that you’ve heard about God. Understand who He reallyis. It’s too important not to be sure. I’ll even talk toyou if you’d like tocontactme.
Want to know God? Jesus really is the only way. I know this much.We can trust him because he truly is good. He was a man like us, andtruly God as well, and because of him and his cross, we can have arelationship with a sweet, sweet God. Any relationship is founded intrust, including one with God through Jesus. Ask him, and He willestablish a relationship with you if you trust him, and He will showyou who he is. I’ve tested him and I’m fully convinced ofhis Character. He is good. He is real. I’m telling you from myheart.
God does desire to search out those things in our lives that don'twork, and correct them. How could a God who created all things andknows how they work, not be trusted to make such changes? Jesus said“If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, andtake up his cross, and follow Me. For whoever desires to save hislife will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will findit”
This is where trust comes in (by faith are you saved). Let's faceit, it's impossible to give up some of the things we like, but Goddoes know what's good for us and what gives us joy. He created thosethings. He is not hard hearted. He said he is gentle and humble. WhenI gave up some of those things, I thought my world was crumblingaround me for about 2 weeks. After that, it wasn't so bad, and after60 days, I hardly missed any of it at all. There's happiness in mylife again. Who knew? Very much like a chemical addiction, a pleasureaddiction plays with our emotions. It's not real. It's just anillusion of our mind. God knew this. He was firm, but he knew goodwould come out of it. I'm no longer having panic attacks and I don'tfeel humiliated all the time. I can say though, that without God, Icould not just change my life. He was with me every step of the way.God is very real. He likes to clear away the things that aren't realin our lives. He's very practical. He does not want to condemn us.His plans for us are good, and to benefit us.
