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Home Again, Home Again
Cory Doctorow
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Home Again, Home Again======================
The kids in my local bat-house breathe heavy metals, and their gelatinous bodiesquiver nauseously during our counseling sessions, and for all that, they reactedjust like I had when I told them I was going away for a while — with hurt andbetrayal, and they aroused palpable guilt in me.
It goes in circles. When I was sixteen, and The Amazing Robotron told me heneeded to go away for a while, but he'd be back, I did everything I could tomake him guilty. Now it's me, on a world far from home, and a pack of snot-nosedjellyfish kids have so twisted my psyche that they're all I can think of when Idebark the shuttle at Aristide Interplanetary, just outside my dirty oleToronto.
The customs officer isn't even human, so it feels like just another R&R, anotherhalting conversation carried on in ugly trade-speak, another bewilderment ofqueues and luggage carousels. Outside: another spaceport, surrounded by thevariegated hostels for the variegated tourists, and bipeds are in bare majority.
I can think of it like that.
I can think of it as another spaceport.
I can think of it like another trip.
The thing he can't think of it is, is a homecoming. That's too hard for thisweak vessel.
He's very weak.
#
Look at him. He's eleven, and it's the tencennial of the Ascension of hishomeworld — dirty blue ball, so unworthy, yet — inducted into the Galacticfraternity and the infinite compassion of the bugouts.
The foam, which had been confined to just the newer, Process-enclaves before theAscension, has spread, as has the cult of the Process For Lasting Happiness.Process is, after all, why the dirty blue ball was judged and found barelyadequate for membership. Toronto, which had seen half its inhabitants emigrateon open-ended tours of the wondrous worlds of the bugout domain, is full again.Bursting. The whole damn planet is accreting a layer of off-world tourists.
It's a time of plenty. Plenty of cheap food and plenty of cheap foam structures,built as needed, then dissolved and washed away when the need disappears. Plentyof healthcare and education. Plenty of toys and distractions and beautiful,haunting bugout art. Plenty, in fact, of everything, except space.
He lived in a building that is so tall, its top floors are perpetually damp withclouds. There's a nice name for this building, inscribed on a much-abused foamsculpture in the central courtyard. No one uses the nice name. They call it bythe name that the tabloids use, that the inhabitants use, that everyone but theoff-world counselors use. They call it the bat-house.
Bats in the belfry. Batty. Batshit.
I hated it when they moved us into the bat-house. My parents gamely tried toexplain why we were going, but they never understood, no more than any humancould. The bugouts had a test, a scifi helmet you wore, and it told you whetheryou were normal, or batty. Some of our neighbors were clearly batshit: the womanwho screamed all the time, about the bugs and the little niggers crawling overher flesh; the couple who ate dogturds off the foam sidewalk with lip-smackingrelish; the guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla.
I don't want to talk about him right now.
His parents' flaw — whatever it was — was too subtle to detect without thescifi helmet. They never knew for sure what it was. Many of the bats were in thesame belfry: part of the bugouts' arrogant compassion held that a couple neverknew which one of them was defective, so his family never knew if it was hisnervous, shy mother, or his loud, opinionated father who had doomed them to thequarantine.
His father told him, in an impromptu ceremony before he slid his keycard intothe lock on their new apt in the belfry: "Chet, whatever they say, there'snothing wrong with us. They have no right to put us here." He knelt to look theskinny ten-year-old right in the eye. "Don't worry, kiddo. It's not for long —we'll get this thing sorted out yet." Then, in a rare moment of tenderness, onethat stood out in Chet's memory as the last of such, his father gathered him inhis arms, lifted him off his feet in a fierce hug. After a moment, his motherjoined the hug, and Chet's face was buried in the spot where both of theirshoulders met, smelling their smells. They still smelled like his parents then,like his old house on the Beaches, and for a moment, he knew his father wasright, that this couldn't possibly last.
A tear rolled down his mother's cheek and dripped in his ear. He shook hisshaggy hair like a dog and his parents laughed, and his father wiped away hismother's tear and they went into the apt, grinning and holding hands.
Of course, they never left the belfry after that.
#
I can't remember what the last thing my mother said to me was. Do I remember hertucking me in and saying, "Good night, sleep tight, don't let the bedbugs bite,"or was that something I saw on a vid? Was it a nervous command to wipe my shoeson the way in the door? Was her voice soft and sad, as it sometimes is in mymemories, or was it brittle and angry, the way she often seemed after shestopped talking, as she banged around the tiny, two-room apt?
I can't remember.
My mother fell away from speech like a half-converted parishioner falling awayfrom the faith: she stopped visiting the temple of verbiage in dribs and drabs,first missing the regular sermons — the daily niceties of Good morning and Goodnight and Be careful, Chet — then neglecting the major holidays, the Watchout!s and the Ouch!s and the answers to direct questions.
My father and I never spoke of it, and I didn't mention it to the other wildkids in the vertical city with whom I spent my days getting in what passed fortrouble around the bat-house.
I did mention it to my counselor, The Amazing Robotron, so-called for the metalexoskeleton he wore to support his fragile body in Earth's hard gravity. But hedidn't count, then.
#
The reason that Chet can't pinpoint the moment his mother sealed her lips isbecause he was a self-absorbed little rodent in those days.
Not a cute freckled hellion. A miserable little shit who played hide-and-seekwith the other miserable little shits in the bat-house, but played it violently,hide-and-seek-and-break-and-enter, hide-and-seek-and-smash-and-grab. The lot ofthem are amorphous, indistinguishable from each other in his memory, all thatremains of all those clever little brats is the lingering impression of loud,boasting voices and sharp little teeth.
The Amazing Robotron was a fool in little Chet's eyes, an easy-to-bullshit,ineffectual lump whose company Chet had to endure for a mandatory hour everyother day.
"Chet, you seem distr-acted to-day," The Amazing Robotron said in his artificialvoice.
"Yah. You know. Worried about, uh, the future." Distracted by Debbie Carr'spurse, filched while she sat in the sixty-eighth floor courtyard, talking withher stupid girlie friends. Debbie was the first girl from the gang to get tits,and now she didn't want to hang out with them anymore, and her purse was stashedunderneath the base of a hollow planter outside The Amazing Robotron's apt, andmaybe he could sneak it out under his shirt and find a place to dump it and sortthrough its contents after the session.
"What is it about the fu-ture that wo-rries you?" The Amazing Robotron was asunreadable as a pinball machine, something he resembled. Underneath, he was acollection of whip-like tentacles with a knot of sensory organs in the middle.
"You know, like, the whole fricken thing. Like if I leave here when I'meighteen, will my folks be okay without me, and like that."
"Your pa-rents are able to take care of them-selves, Chet. You must con-cernyour-self with you, Chet. You should do something con-struct-tive with yourwo-rry, such as de-ciding on a ca-reer that will ful-fill you when you leave theCen-ter." The Center was the short form for the long, nice name that no one everused to describe the bat-house.
"I thought, like, maybe I could be, you know, a spaceship pilot or something."
"Then you must stu-dy math-e-mat-ics and phy-sics. If you like, Chet, I canre-quest ad-vanced in-struct-tion-al mat-e-rials for you."
"Sure, that'd be great. Thanks, Robotron."
"You are wel-come, Chet. I am glad to help. My own par-ent was in a Cen-ter onmy world, you know. I un-der-stand how you feel. There is still time re-main-ingin your ses-sion. What else would you like to dis-cuss?"
"My mother doesn't talk anymore. Nothing. Why is that?"
"Your mo-ther is. . . ." The Amazing Robotron fumbled for a word, buriedsomewhere deep in the hypnotic English lexicon baked into its brain. "Yourmo-ther has a prob-lem, and she needs your aff-ec-tion now more than e-ver.What-ev-er rea-son she has for her si-lence, it is not you. Your mo-ther andfa-ther love you, and dream of the day when you leave here and make your own waythrough the gal-ax-y."
Of course his parents loved him, he supposed, in an abstract kind of way. Hismother, who hadn't worn anything but a bathrobe in months, whose face hecouldn't picture behind his eyes but whose bathrobe he could visualize in itsevery rip and stain and fray. His father, who seemed to have forgotten how togroom himself, who spent his loud days in one of the bat-house's workshops,drinking beer with his buddies while they played with the arc welders. Hisparents loved him, he knew that.
"OK, right, thanks. I've gotta blow, 'K?"
"All-right. I will see you on Thurs-day, then?"
But Chet was already out the door, digging Debbie Carr's purse from under theplanter, then running, doubled over the bulge it made in his shirt, hunting fora private space in the anthill.
#
The entire north face of the bat-house was eyeless, a blind, windowless expanseof foam that seemed to curve as it approached infinity.
Some said it was an architectural error, others said it was part of thebat-house's heating scheme. Up in nosebleed country, on the 120th level, it wasalmost empty: sparsely populated by the very battiest bats, though as more andmore humans were found batty, they pushed inexorably upwards.
Chet rode the lift to the 125th floor and walked casually to the end of thehallway. At this height, the hallways were bare foam, without the long-wearcarpet and fake plants that adorned the low-altitude territories. He walked ascalmly as he could to the very end of the northern hall, then hunkered down inthe corner and spilled the purse.
Shit, but Debbie Carr was going girlie. The pile was all tampons and makeup and,ugh, a spare bra. A spare bra! I chuckled, and kept sorting. There were threepennies, enough to buy six chocolate bars in the black-market tuck-shop on the75th floor. A clever little pair of folding scissors, their blades razor-sharp.I was using them to slit the lining of the purse when the door to 12525 opened,and the guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla emerged.
My palms slicked with guilty sweat, and the pile of Debbie's crap, set againstthe featureless foam corridor, seemed to scream its presence. I spun around,working my body into the corner, and held the little scissors like a dagger inmy fist.
The guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla was clearly batty. He was wearingboxer-shorts and a tailcoat and had a halo of wild, greasy hair and a long,tangled beard, but even if he'd been wearing a suit and tie and had a trip tothe barber's, I'd have known he was batty the minute I laid eyes on him. Hedidn't walk, he shambled, like he'd spent a long, long time on meds. His eyes,set in deep black pits of sleeplessness, were ferociously crazy.
He turned to stare at me.
"Hello, sonny. Do you like to swim?"
I stood in my corner, mute, trapped.
"I have an ocean in my apt. Maybe you'd like to try it? I used to love to swimin the ocean when I was a boy."
My feet moved without my willing them. An ocean in his apt? My feet wanted toknow about this.
I entered his apt, and even my feet were too surprised to go on.
He had the biggest apt I'd ever seen. It spanned three quarters of the length ofthe bat-house, and was five storeys high. The spots where he'd dissolved thefoam walls away with solvent were rough and uneven, and rings of foam encircledeach of the missing storeys above. I couldn't imagine getting that much solvent:it was more tightly controlled than plutonium, the subject of countlessaction-adventure vids.
At one end of the apt stood a collection of tall, spiny apparatus, humming withelectricity and sparking. They were remarkable, but their impact was lost inwhat lay at the other end.
The guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla had an ocean in his apt. It was a clearaquarium tank, fifteen meters long and nearly seventeen high, and eight metersdeep. It was dominated by a massive, baroque coral reef, like a melting castlewith misshapen brains growing out of it.
Schools of fish — bright as jellybeans — darted through the ocean's depths,swimming in and out of the softly waving plants. A thousand neon tetra, a flockof living quicksilver sewing needles, turned 90 degrees in perfect unison, thendid it again, and again, and again, describing a neat, angular box in the water.
"Isn't it beautiful? I'm using it in one of my experiments, but I also find itverycalming."
#
I hail a pedicab and the kids back on my adopted homeworld, with their accusing,angry words and stares vanish from my mind. The cabbie is about nineteen andmuscular as hell, legs like treetrunks, clipped into the pedals. A flywheelspins between him and me, and his brakes store his momentum up in it every timehe slows. On the two-hour ride into downtown Toronto, he never once comes to afull stop.
I've booked a room at the Royal York. I can afford it — the stipend I receivefor the counseling work has been slowly accumulating in my bank account.
Downtown is all foam now, and "historical" shops selling authentic Earthcrapola: reproductions of old newspapers, reproductions of old electronics,reproductions of old clothes and old food and other discarded cultural detritus.I see tall, clacking insect-creatures with walkman headphones across theirstomachs. I see squat, rocky creatures smearing pizza slices onto theirdigestive membranes. I see soft, slithering creatures with Toronto Blue Jaysbaseball hats suspended in their jelly.
The humans I see are dressed in unisex coveralls, with discreet comms on theirwrists or collars, and they don't seem to notice that their city is become abestiary.
The cabby isn't even out of breath when we pull up at the Royal York, which,thankfully, is still clothed in its ancient dressed stone. We point our comms ateach other and I squirt some money at him, adding a generous tip. His face,which had been wildly animated while he dodged the traffic on the long ride is astony mask now, as though when at rest he entered a semiconscious sleep mode.
The doorman is dressed in what may or may not be historically accurate costume,though what period it is meant to represent is anyone's guess. He carries my bagto the check-in and I squirt more money at him. He wishes that I have a nicestay in Toronto, and I wish it, too.
At the check-in, I squirt my ID and still more money at the efficient youngwoman in a smart blazer, and another babu in period costume — those shoes lookpainful — carries my bag to the lift and presses the button.
We wait in strained silence and the lift makes its achingly slow progresstowards us. There are no elevators on the planet I live on now — the wildgravity and wilder windstorms don't permit buildings of more than one story —but even if there were, they wouldn't be like this lift, like a human lift, likeone of the fifty that ran the vertical length of the bat-house.
I nearly choke as we enter that lift. It has the smell of a million transientguests, aftershaves and perfumes and pheromones, and the stale recirc air Iremember so well. I stifle the choke into my fist, fake a cough, and feel aself-consciousness I didn't know I had.
I'm worried that the babu knows that I grew up in the bat-house.
Now I can't make eye-contact with him. Now I can't seem to stand naturally,can't figure out where a not-crazy puts his hands and where a not-crazy puts hiseyes. Little Chet and his mates liked to terrorize people in the lifts, play"who farted" and "I'm gonna puke" and "I have to pee" in loud sing-songs, justto watch the other bats squirm.
The guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla thought that these games were unfunny,unsophisticated and unappetizing and little Chet stopped playing them.
I squirt extra money at the babu, after he opens my windows and shows me theshitter and the vid's remote.
I unpack mechanically, my meager bag yielding more-meager clothes. I'd thoughtI'd buy more after earthfall, since the spaceports' version of human apparelwasn't, very. I realize that I'm wearing the same clothes I left Earth in, lothose years before. They're hardly the worse for wear — when I'm in myexoskeleton on my new planet, I don't bother with clothes.
#
The ocean seemed too fragile to be real. All that caged water, held behind aflimsy-seeming sheet of clear foam, the corners joined with strips of thickgasket-rubber. Standing there at its base, Chet was terrified that it wouldburst and drown him — he actually felt the push of water, the horrid, dyingwriggles of the fish as they were washed over his body.
"Say there, son. Hello?"
Chet looked up. Nicola Tesla's hair was standing on end, comically. He realizedthat his own long, shaggy hair was doing the same. The whole room felt electric.
"Are you all right?" He had a trace of an accent, like the hint of garlic in asalad dressing, an odd way of stepping on his vowels.
"Yeh, yeh, fine. I'm fine," Chet said.
"I am pleased to hear that. What is your name, son?"
"Chet. Affeltranger."
"I'm pleased to meet you. My name is Gaylord Ballozos, though that's not who Iam. You see, I'm the channel for Nicola Tesla. Would you like to see a magictrick?"
Chet nodded. He wondered who Nicola Tesla was, and filed away the name Gaylordfor making fun of, later. In doing so, he began to normalize the experience, tostructure it as a story he could tell the other kids, after. The guy, the ocean,the hair. Gaylord.
A ball of lightning leapt from Tesla/Ballozos's fingertips and danced over theirheads. It bounced around the room furiously, then stopped to hover in front ofChet. His clothes stood away from his body, snapping as though caught in awindstorm. Seen up close, the ball was an infinite pool of shifting electricity,like an ocean of energy. Tentatively, he reached out to touch it, and Teslashouted "Don't!" and the ball whipped up and away, spearing itself on the pointof one of the towers on the opposite side of the room.
It vanished, leaving a tangy, sharp smell behind.
The story Chet had been telling in his mind disappeared with it. He stood,shocked speechless.
The guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla chuckled a little, then started tolaugh, actually doubling over and slapping his thighs.
"You can'timagine how long I've waited to show that trick to someone! Thankyou, young Mr. Affeltranger! A million thanks to you, for your obviousappreciation."
Chet felt a giggle welling up in him, and he did laugh, and when his lips cametogether, a spark of static electricity leapt from their seam to his nose andmade him jump, and laugh all the harder.
The guy came forward and pumped his arm in a dry handshake. "I can see that you and I are kindred spirits. You will have to come and visit again, very soon, and I will let you see more of my ocean, and maybe let you see 'Old Sparky,' too. Thank you, thank you, thank you, for dropping in."
And he ushered Chet out of his apt and closed the door, leaving him in thefeatureless hallway of the 125th storey.
#
I had never been as nervous as I was the following Thursday, when my regularappointment with The Amazing Robotron rolled around again. I hadn't spoken ofthe guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla to any of my gang, and of course not tomy parents, but somehow, I felt like I might end up spilling to The AmazingRobotron.
I don't know why I was worried. The guy hadn't asked me to keep it a secret,after all, and I had never had any problem holding my tongue around The AmazingRobotron before.
"Hel-lo, Chet. How have you been?"
"I've been OK."
"Have you been stud-y-ing math-e-mat-ics and phys-ics? I had the supp-le-ment-almat-e-rials de-liv-er-ed to your apt yes-ter-day."
"No, I haven't. I don't think I wanna be a pilot no more. One of my buds tole methat you end up all fugged up with time an' that, that you come home an' it'sthe next century an' everyone you know is dead."
"That is one thing that hap-pens to some ex-plor-a-tor-y pilots, Chet. Have youthought a-bout any o-ther poss-i-bil-i-ties?"
"Kinda. I guess." I tried not to think about the 125th story and the ocean. Iwas thinking so hard, I stopped thinking about what I was saying to The AmazingRobotron. "Maybe I could be a counselor, like, and help kids."
The Amazing Robotron turned into a pinball machine again, an unreadable andmotionless block. Silent for so long I thought he was gone, dead as a sardineinside his tin can. Then, he twitched both of his arms, like he was shivering.Then his robot-voice came out of the grille on his face. "I think that you wouldbe a ve-ry good coun-sel-or, Chet."
"Yeh?" I said. It was the first time that The Amazing Robotron had told me hethought I'd be good at anything. Hell, it was the first time he'd expressedany opinion about anything I'd said.
"Yes, Chet. Be-ing a coun-sel-or is a ve-ry good way to help your-selfun-der-stand what we have done to you by put-ting you in the Cen-ter."
I couldn't speak. My Mom, before she fell silent, had often spoken about howunfair it was for me to be stuck here, because of something that she or myfather had done. But my father never seemed to notice me, and the teachers onthe vid made a point of not mentioning the bat-house — like someone trying hardnot to notice a stutter or a wart, and youknew that the best you could hopefor from them was pity.
"Be-ing a coun-sel-or is ve-ry hard, Chet. But coun-sel-ors sometimes get aspec-ial re-ward. Some-times, we get to help. Do you re-ally want to do this?"
"Yeh. Yes. I mean, it sounds good. You get to travel, right?"
The Amazing Robotron's idiot-lights rippled, something I came to recognize as achuckle, later. "Yes. Tra-vel is part of the job. I sug-gest that you start byex-am-in-ing your friends. See if you can fi-gure out why they do what they do."
I've used this trick on my kids. What do I know about their psychology? But youget one, you convince it to explain the rest to you. It helps. Counselors arealways from another world — by the time the first generation raised in abat-house has grown old enough, there aren't any bats' children left to counselon their homeworld.
#
I take room-service, pizza and beer in an ice-bucket: pretentious, but betterthan sharing a dining-room with the menagerie. Am I becoming a racist?
No, no. I just need to focus on things human, during this vacation.
The food is disappointing. It's been years since I lay awake at night, craving aslice and a brew and a normal gravity and a life away from the bats.Nevertheless, the craving remained, buried, and resurfaced when I went over theroom-service menu. By the time the dumbwaiter in my room chimed, I waspractically drooling.
But by the time I take my second bite, it's just pizza and a brew.
I wonder if I will ever get to sleep, but when the time comes, my eyes close andif I dream, I don't remember it.
I get up and dress and send up for eggs and real Atlantic salmon and brown toastand a pitcher of coffee, then find myself unable to eat any of it. I make asandwich out of it and wrap it in napkins and stuff it into my day-pack alongwith a water-bottle and some sun-block.
It's a long walk up to the bat-house, but I should make it by nightfall.
#
Chet was up at 6h the next morning. His mom was already up, but she never sleptthat he could tell. She was clattering around the kitchen in her housecoat,emptying the cupboards and then re-stacking their contents for the thousandthtime. She shot him a look of something between fear and affection as he pulledon his shorts and a t-shirt, and he found himself hugging her waist. For asecond, it felt like she softened into his embrace, like she was going to saysomething, like it was normal, and then she picked up a plate and rubbed it witha towel and put it back into the cupboard.
Chet left without saying a word.
The bat-house breathed around him, a million farts and snores and whisperedwords. A lift was available almost before he took his finger off the summonbutton. "125," he said.
Chet walked to the door of the guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla and startedto knock, then put his hands down and sank down into a squat, with his backagainst it.
He must have dozed, because the next thing he knew, he was tipping overbackwards into the apt, and the guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla was standingover him, concerned.
"Are you all right, son?"
Chet stood, dusted himself off and looked at the floor. "Sorry, I didn't want todisturb you. . ."
"But you wanted to come back and see more. Marvelous! I applaud your curiosity,young sir. I have just taken the waters — perhaps you would like to try?" Hegestured at the ocean.
"You mean, swim in it?"
"If you like. Myself, I find a snorkel and mask far superior. My set is up onthe rim, you're welcome to them, but I would ask you to chew a stick of thisbefore you get in." He tossed Chet a pack of gum. "It's an invention of my own— chew a stick of that, and you can_not_ transmit any nasty bugs in your salivafor forty-eight hours. I hold a patent for it, of course, but my agents reportthat it has been met with crashing indifference in the Great Beyond."
Chet had been swimming before, in the urinary communal pools on the tenth andfifteenth levels, horsing around naked with his mates. Nudity was not a big dealfor the kids of the bat-house — the kind of adult who you wouldn't trust insuch circumstances didn't end up in bat-houses — the bugouts had a differentplace for them.
"Go on, lad, give it a try. It's simply marvelous, I tell you!"
Unsteadily, Chet climbed the spiral stairs leading up to the tank, clutching thehandrail, chewing the gum, which fizzed and sparked in his mouth. At the top,there was a small platform. Self-consciously, he stripped, then pulled on themask and snorkel that hung from a peg.
"Tighten the straps, boy!" the guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla shouted, fromfar, far below. "If water gets into the mask, just push at the top and blow outthrough your nose!"
Chet awkwardly lowered himself into the water. It was warm — blood temperature— and salty, and it fizzled a little on his skin, as though it, too, wereelectric.
He kept one hand on the snorkel, afraid that it would tip and fill with water,and then, slowly, slowly, relaxed on his belly, mask in the water, arms by hisside.
My god! It was like I was flying! It was like all the dreams I'd ever had, offlying, of hovering over an alien world, of my consciousness taking flight frommy body and sailing through the galaxy.
My hands were by my sides, out of view of the mask, and my legs were behind me.I couldn't see any of my body. My view stretched 8m down, an impossible,dizzying height. A narrow, elegant angelfish swam directly beneath me, andtickled my belly with one of its fins as it passed under.
I smiled, a huge grin, and it broke the seal on my mask, filling it with water.Calmly, as though I'd been doing it all my life, I pressed the top of my mask tomy forehead and blew out through my nose. My mask cleared of water.
I floated.
The only sound was my breathing, and distant, metallic _pink!_s from the ocean'sdepths. A school of iridescent purple fish swam past me, and I lazily kicked outafter them, following them to the edge of the coral reef that climbed the farwall of the ocean. When I reached it, I was overwhelmed by its complexity,millions upon millions of tiny little suckers depending from weird branches andmisshapen brains and stone roses.
I held my breath.
And I heard nothing. Not a sound, for the first time in all the time I had beenin the bat-house — no distant shouts and mutters. I was alone, in a vast,personal silence, in a private ocean. My pulse beat under my skin. Tiny fishwriggled in the coral, tearing at the green fuzz that grew over it.
Slowly, I turned around and around. The ocean-wall that faced into the apt wassilvered on this side, reflecting back my little pale body to me. My headpounded, and I finally inhaled, and the sound of my breathing, harsh through thesnorkel, rang in my ears.
I spent an age in the water, holding my breath, chasing the fish, disembodied, aconsciousness on tour on an alien world.
The guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla brought me back. He waited on the rim ofthe tank until I swam near enough for him to touch, then he tapped me on theshoulder. I stuck my head up, and he said, "Time to get out, boy, I need to usethe ocean."
Reluctantly, I climbed out. He handed me a towel.
I felt like I was still flying, atop the staircase on the ocean's edge. I feltlike I could trip slowly down the stairs, never quite touching them. I pulled onmy clothes, and they felt odd to me.
Carefully, forcing myself to grip the railing, I descended. The guy who thoughthe was Nicola Tesla stood at my side, not speaking, allowing me my reverie.
My hair was drying out, and starting to raise skywards, and the guy who thoughthe was Nicola Tesla went over to his apparatus and flipped a giant knife switch.The ocean stirred, a puff of sand rose from its bottom, and then, the coral onthe ocean's edgemoved.
It squirmed and danced and writhed, startling the fish away from it, sheddinglayers of algae in a green cloud.
"It's my latest idea. I've found the electromagnetic frequencies that thevarious coral resonate on, and by using those as a carrier wave, I can stimulatethem into tremendously accelerated growth. Moreover, I can alter theirelectromagnetic valences, so that, instead of calcium salts, they use otherminerals as their building-blocks."
He grinned hugely, and seemed to want Chet to say something. Chet didn'tunderstand any of it.
"Well, don't you see?"
"Nuh."
"I can use coral to concentrate trace gold and platinum and any otherheavy-metal you care to name out of the seas. I can prospect in the very wateritself!" He killed the switch. The coral stopped their dance abruptly, and thenew appendages they'd grown dropped away, tumbling gracefully to the ocean'sfloor. "You see? Gold, platinum, lead. I dissolved a kilo of each into the waterlast night, microscopic flakes. In five minutes, my coral has concentrated itall."
The stumps where the minerals had dropped away were jagged and sharp, andpainful looking.
"It doesn't even harm the fish!"
#
Chet's playmates seemed as strange as fish to him. They met up on the 87thlevel, where there was an abandoned apt with a faulty lock. Some of them seemedbatty themselves, standing in corners, staring at the walls, tracing patternsthat they alone could see. Others seemed too confident ever to be bats — theyshouted and boasted to each other, got into shoving matches that escalated intoknock-out brawls and then dissolved into giggles. Chet found himself on thesidelines, an observer.
One boy, whose father hung around the workshops with Chet's father, wasindustriously pulling apart the warp of the carpet, rolling it into a ball. Whenthe ball reached a certain size, he snapped the loose end, tucked it in andstarted another.
A girl whose family had been taken to the bat-house all the way from areservation near Sioux Lookout was telling loud lies about home, abouttremendous gun-battles fought out with the Ontario Provincial Police and huge,glamorous casinos where her mother had dealt blackjack to millionairehigh-rollers, who tucked thousand dollar tips into her palm. About her bow andarrow and her rifle and her horses. Nobody believed her stories, and they madefun of her behind her back, but they listened when she told them, spellbound.
What was her name, anyway?
There were two boys, one followed the other everywhere. The followee wastormenting the follower, as usual, smacking him in the back of the head, thencalling him a baby, goading him into hitting back, dodging easily, andretaliating viciously.
Chet thought that he understood some of what was going on. Maybe he'd be able toexplain it to The Amazing Robotron.
#
I never thought I'd say this, but I miss my exoskeleton. My feet ache, my legsache, my ass aches, and I'm hot and thirsty and my waterbottle is empty. I'm noteven past Bloor Street, not even a tenth of the way to the bat-house.
#
The Amazing Robotron seemed thoughtful as I ratted out my chums. "So, I thinkthey need each other. The big one needs the little one, to feel important. Thelittle one needs the big one, so that he can feel useful. Is that right?"
"It is ve-ry per-cep-tive, Chet. When I was young, I had a sim-i-lar friend-shipwith an-other. It — no,she — was the lit-tle one, and I was the big one.Her pa-rent died be-fore we came of age, and she left the Cen-ter, and when shecame back to visit, a long time la-ter, we were re-ver-sed — I felt smal-lerbut good, and spec-ial be-cause she told me all a-bout the out-side."
Something clicked inside me then. I saw myself inside The Amazing Robotron'sexoskeleton, and he in my skin, our roles reversed. It lasted no longer than alightning flash, but in that flash, I suddenly knew that I could talk to TheAmazing Robotron, and that he would understand.
I felt so smart all of a sudden. I felt like The Amazing Robotron and I werestanding outside the bat-house,in it but notof it, and we shared a secretinsight into the poor, crazy bastards we were cooped up with.
"I don't really like anyone here. I don't like my Dad — he's always shouting,and I think he's the reason we ended up here. He's batshit — he gets angry tooeasy. And my Mom is batshit now, even if she wasn't batshit before, because ofhim. I don't feel like their son. I feel like I just share an apt with these twocrazy people I don't like very much. And none of my mates are any good, either.They're all either like my Dad — loud and crazy, or like my Mom, quiet andcrazy. Everyone's crazy."
"That may be true, Chet. But you can still like cra-zy peo-ple."
"Doyou like 'em?"
The Amazing Robotron's idiot lights rippled.Gotcha, I thought.
"I do not like them, Chet. They are loud and cra-zy and they on-ly think ofthem-selves."
I laughed. It was so refreshing not to be lied to. My skin was all tight fromthe dried saltwater, and that felt good, too.
"My Dad, the other day? He came home and was all, 'This is a conspiracy to driveus out of our house. It's because we bought a house with damn high ceilings.Some big damn alien wanted to live there, so they put us here. It's because Idid such a good job on the ceilings!' Which is so stupid, 'cause the ceilings inour old house weren't no higher than the ceilings here, and besides, Dad screwedup all the plaster when he was trying to fix it up, and it was always cracking.
"And then he starts talking about what's really bugging him, which is that someguy at the workshop took his favorite drill and he couldn't finish his bigproject without it. So he got into a fight with the guy, and got the drill andthen he finished his big, big project, and brought it home, and you know what itwas? Apencil-holder! We don't evenhave any pencils! He is so screwed up."
And The Amazing Robotron's lights rippled again, and a huge weight lifted frommy shoulders. I didn't feel ashamed of the maniacs that gave me life — I sawthem as pitiful subjects for my observations. I laughed again, and that musthave been the most I'd laughed since they put us in the bat-house.
#
I'm getting my sea-legs. I hope. My mouth is pasty, and salty, and sweat keepsrunning down into my eyes. I never even began to realize how much support theexoskeleton's jelly-suspension lent me.
But I've made it to Eglinton, and that's nearly a third of the way, and tocelebrate, I stop in at a coffee-shop and drink a whole pitcher of lemonadewhile sitting by the air-conditioner.
I got the word that they were tearing down the bat-house only two weeks ago. Themessage came by priority email from The Amazing Robotron: all the bats weredead, or enough of them anyway that the rest could be relocated to lessexpensive quarters. It was barely enough notice to get my emergency leaveapplication in, to book a ticket back to Earth, and to finally become a murdererall the way.
Damn, I hope I know what I'm doing.
#
The guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla told me all kinds of stories, and I wassure he was lying to me, but when I checked out the parts of his story that Icould, they all turned out to be true.
"I don't actuallyneed to be here. I've come here to get away from all thetreachery, the deceit, the filthy pursuit of the dollar. As though I need moremoney! I invented foam! Oh, sure, the Process likes to take credit for it, butif you look up the patent, guess who owns it?
"Master Affeltranger, you may not realize it to look at me, but I have somevery important friends, out there in the Great Beyond. With important friends,you can make a whole block of apts simply disappear from the record-books. Youcan make tremendous energy consumption vanish, likewise."
He spoke as he tinkered with his apparatus, which hummed alarmingly andoccasionally sent a tortured arc of electricity into the guy who thought he wasNicola Tesla's chest.
It happened three times in a row, and he stamped his foot in frustration, andsaid, "Oh,do cut it out," apparently to one of his machines.
I'd been jumping every time he got zapped, but this time, I had to giggle. Hewhirled on me. "I am not trying to beamusing. One thing you people neverrealize is that the current has awill, it has amind, and you have to keepit in check with a firm hand."
I shook my head a little, not understanding. He waved a hand at me, frustrated,and said, "Oh, go have a swim. I don't have time to argue with a child."
I climbed into the ocean, and the silence embraced me, and the water tingledwith electricity, and my consciousness floated away from my body and soared overan alien world. Like a broken circuit, I disconnected from the world around me.
#
Chet's father came home with a can of beer in his hand and the rest of thesix-pack in his gut. He walked over to the vid, where Chet was researching thelife of Nicola Tesla, which took forever, since he had to keep linking back tosimple tutorials on physics, history, and electrical engineering.
Chet's father stooped and took the remote out of Chet's hands and opened up abookmarked docu-drama about the coming of the bugouts. Chet opened his mouth toprotest, and his father shouted him down before he could speak. "Not one word,you hear me? Not! One! Word! I've had a shithole day and I wanna relax."
Chet's mother dropped a plastic tumbler, which bounced twice, and rolled toChet's toe. He stepped over it, walked out the door, and took the elevator tothe 125th floor.
Chet burst into the guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla's apt and screamed.Nicola Tesla was strapped into a heavy wooden chair, with a metal hood over hishead. Arcs of electricity danced over his body, and he jerked and thrashedagainst the leather straps that bound his limbs. Unthinking, Chet ran forwardand grabbed the buckle that bound his wrist, and a giant's fist smashed intohim, hurling him across the room.
When he came to, the electric arcs were gone, but the guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla was motionless in his straps, under his hood.
Carefully, Chet came to his feet, and saw that the toe of his right sneaker hadbeen blown out, leaving behind charred canvas. His foot hurt — burned.
He hobbled to the chair and gingerly prodded it, then jerked his hand back,though he hadn't been shocked. He bit his lip and stared. The wood was quiteweathered and elderly, though it had been oiled and had a rich, well-cared-forfinish. The leather straps were nightmarishly thick, gripping the guy whothought he was Nicola Tesla at the bicep and wrist, at the thigh and calf andankle. Livid bruises were already spreading at their edges.
Chet was struck by a sudden urge to climb into the ocean andstay there. Juststay there.
Under the hood, the guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla groaned. Chet gave aninvoluntary squeak and jumped a little. The guy who thought he was NicolaTesla's body snapped tense. "Who's there?" he said, his voice muffled by thehood.
"It's me, Chet."
"Chet? Damn. Damn, damn, damn." His right hand bent nearly double at the wristand teased the buckle of the strap free. With one hand free, the guy who thoughthe was Nicola Tesla quickly undid the straps on his upper body, then lifted awaythe hood. He pointedly did not look at Chet as he doubled over and undid thestraps on his legs and ankles.
Gingerly, he stood and stretched, then sighed tremendously.
"Chet, Chet, Chet. I hope I didn't frighten you too badly. This is Old Sparky,an exact replica of the electric chair at Sing-Sing Prison in New York. Edison,thief and charlatan that he was, insisted that his DC current was safer than myAC, and they built a chair that used my beautiful current to execute criminals,by the hundreds.
"Nicola Tesla and I became one when I was eight years old, and I received atremendous shock from an electrified fence. I was stuck to it, glued by thecurrent, and after a few moments, I just relaxed into the current — befriendedit, if you will. That's when the spirit of Nicola Tesla, a-wandering through thewires for all the years since his death, infused my body.
"So now I use Old Sparky here to recharge — please forgive the expression — myconnection with the current. I once spent eight years in the chair, when Ineeded to disappear for a while. When I woke, I hadn't aged at all — I didn'teven need to shave! What do you think of that?"
Chet was staring in horror at him. "You electrocute yourself? On purpose?"
"Why, yes! Think of it as a trick I do, if it makes you feel better. I couldshow you how to do it. . ." he trailed off, but a look of hunger had passed overhis face.
#
I get all kinds of access to bat-house records from the vid in my apt on my newworld. No one named Gaylord Ballozos ever lived in any bat-house. Apt 12525, andthe five above it, were never occupied. The records say that the locks havenever been used, the doors never opened. It won't be searched when they evacuatethe bat-house.
That's what the records say, anyway.
Electricity gives me the willies. The zaps of static from the dry air of the FTLI took home to Earth made me scream, little-boy squeaks that made the otherpassengers jump.
I don't remember that it was ever this hot in Toronto, even in the summer. Thesky is all overcast, so maybe it's a temperature inversion. Up here at SteelesAvenue, I'm so dehydrated that I spend a whole dime on a magnum of still waterand power-chug it, though you're not supposed to drink that way. Almost there.
#
The other kids in the abandoned apt on the 87th floor ignored me. They'd beenpaying less and less attention to me, ever since I started spending myafternoons up on 125, and I was getting a reputation as a keener for all thetime I spent with The Amazing Robotron.
That suited me fine; the corner of the gutted kitchen was as private a space asI was going to find in the bat-house. I had the apparatus that Nicola Tesla hadgiven me plugged into the AC outlet under the sink. I closed my eyes andbreathed deeply, concentrating on the moments after my breath left my chest,that calm like the ocean's silence. Smoothly, I reached out and grasped thehandle of the apparatus and squeezed.
The first time I tried this, under Nicola Tesla's supervision, I'd jerked myhand away and squeezed it between my legs as soon as the current shot throughme. Now, though, I could keep squeezing, slowly increasing the voltage andamperage, relaxing into the involuntary tension in my muscles.
I'd gotten so good at it that I'd started using the timer — I could lean intothe current forever without it. I had it set for three hours, but when thecurrent died, it felt like no time at all had passed. I probed around myconsciousness for any revelation, but no spirit had come into my body during theexercise. The guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla didn't know if there were anyother spirits in the wire, but it stood to reason that if there was one, therehad to be more.
I stood, and felt incredibly calm and balanced and centered and I floated pastthe other kids. It was time for my session with The Amazing Robotron.
"Chet, how are you fee-ling?"
"I'm well, thank you." Nicola Tesla spoke well and carefully, and I'd started toape him.
"And what would you like to dis-cuss to-day?"
"I don't really have anything to talk about, honestly. Everything is fine."
"That is good. Do you have any new ob-ser-va-tions about your friends?"
"I'm sorry, no. I haven't been paying much attention lately."
"Why hav-en't you?"
"It just doesn't interest me, sorry."
"Why does-n't it in-ter-est you?"
"I just don't care about them, to be frank."
The Amazing Robotron was absolutely still for a moment. "Are things well withyour par-ents, too?"
"The same as always. I think they've found their niches."Find your niche wasan expression I'd pirated from the guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla. I wasvery proud of it.
"In that case, why don't we end this mee-ting?"
I was surprised. The Amazing Robotron always demanded his full hour. "I'll seeyou on Wednesday, then?"
"I'm af-raid not, Chet. I will be gone for a few months — I have to re-turnhome. There will be a sub-sti-tute coun-sel-or arri-ving next Monday."
My calm center shattered. Sweat sprang out on my palms. "What? You're leaving? How can you be leaving?"
"I'm so-rry, Chet. There is an em-er-gen-cy at home. I'll be back as soon as Ican."
"Frick that! How can you go? What'll I do if you don't come back? You're theonly one I can talk to!"
"I'm so-rry, Chet. I have to go."
"If you gave a shit, you'd stay. You can't just leave me here!" I knew as I saidit that it didn't make any sense, but a picture sprang into my mind, one thatI'd been carrying without knowing it for a long time: The Amazing Robotron andme as an adult, walking away from the bat-house, with suitcases, leavingtogether, forever. I felt a sob hiccough in my throat.
"I will re-turn, Chet. I did-n't wish to up-set you."
"Frick that! I don't give a shit if you come back, asshole."
#
Chet went straight to 87 and plugged in to the apparatus. He didn't set thetimer, and he stayed plugged in for nearly two days, when two fighting boystumbled into him and knocked his hand away. He was centered and numb again, anddidn't have any sense of the intervening time. He didn't even have to pee. Hewondered if he was trying to commit suicide.
He checked his comm and got the date, noticed with distant surprise that it wastwo days later, and wandered up to 125.
The guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla shouted a distant "Come in" when Chettapped on the door. He was playing with his ocean again. Chet felt his hairfloat up off his shoulders. He stopped and watched the coral squirm and dance.
"I spent nearly two days on the apparatus," Chet said.
"Eh? Very good, very good. You're progressing nicely."
"My counselor has left. He had to go home."
"Yes? Well, there you are."
"What were your parents like?"
"Nicola Tesla's father was a bishop, and his mother was an illiterate, thoughshe was a gifted memnist and taught me much about visualization."
"No, I meanyour parents. Mister and Missus Ballozos. What werethey like?"
The guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla shut down the ocean and watched thelumps of ore tumble to the sand. "Why do you want to know aboutthem? Are youhaving some sort of trouble at home?" he asked impatiently, not looking awayfrom the ocean.
"No reason," Chet said. "I have to go home now."
"Yes, fine."
#
"The hell have you been, boy?" Chet's father said, when he came through door.His father was in front of the vid, wearing shorts and a filthy t-shirt, holdingthe remote in one hand. Chet's mother was sitting at the window, staring outinto the clouds.
"Out. Around. I'm okay, okay?"
"It's not okay. You can't just run around like some kind of animal. Sit the helldown and tell me where you've been. Your counselor was here looking for you."
"Robotron? He was here?"
"Yes he was here! And I had to tell him I didn't know where my damn kid was! Howdo you think that makes me look? You know how worried your mother was?"
Chet's mother didn't stir from her post by the window, but she flinched when Chet's father spoke. Chet swallowed hard.
"What did he want?"
"Never mind that! Sit the hell down and tell me where you've been and what thehell you thought you were doing!"
Chet sat beside his father and stared at his hands. He knew he could outwait hisfather. After half an hour, Chet's father turned the vid on. Four long hourslater, he switched it off, and went to bed.
Chet's mother finally turned away from the now-dark window. She reached into thepocket of her grimy bathrobe and withdrew an envelope and handed it to Chet,then turned and went to the apt's other room to sleep.
My name was on the outside of the envelope, in rough script, written withawkward exoskeleton manipulators. I broke its seal, and it folded out into asingle flat sheet of paper.
DEAR CHET, it began. At the bottom of it was a complex scrawl that I recognizedfrom the front of The Amazing Robotron's exoskeleton. It must be some kind ofsignature.
DEAR CHET,
I AM SORRY TO HAVE TO LEAVE YOU SO SUDDENLY, AND WITHOUT ANYONE ELSE TO TALK TO.THERE IS AN EMERGENCY AT MY HOME, BUT I WOULDN'T GO IF I DIDN'T BELIEVE THAT YOUWERE ABLE TO HANDLE MY ABSENCE. YOU ARE A VERY PERCEPTIVE AND STRONG YOUNG MAN,AND YOU WILL BE ABLE TO MANAGE IN MY ABSENCE. I WILL BE BACK, YOU KNOW.
YOU WILL BE ALL RIGHT. I PROMISE.
THIS ISN'T EASY FOR ME TO DO, EITHER. IT MAY BE THAT I AM THE ONLY ONE YOU CANTALK TO HERE AT THE CENTER. IT IS LIKEWISE TRUE THAT YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE I CANTALK TO.
I WILL MISS YOU, MY FRIEND CHET.
The writing was childish, with many line-outs and corrections. Reading it, Iheard it not in The Amazing Robotron's halting mechanical speech, but in my ownvoice.
I didn't cry. I held the letter tight in my hand, as tight as I ever held theapparatus, and leaned into it, like it was a source of strength.
#
They haven't even started work on the bat-house. There are bugout saucershovering all around it, with giant foam-solvent tanks mounted under theirbellies. A small crowd has gathered.
I take off my jacket and lay it on the strip of grass by the sidewalk across thestreet from the bat-house. I pull off my soaked t-shirt and feel a rare breezeacross my chest, as soothing as a kiss on a fevered forehead. I ball up theshirt, then lay down on my jacket, using the shirt as a pillow.
The bat-house is empty, its eyes staring blind, vertical to infinity. The grottysculpture out front is gone already, and with it, the sign with the polite,never-used name. It is now just the bat-house.
I check my comm. The dissolving of the bat-house is scheduled for less than anhour from now.
#
The new counselor was no damn good. It wore a different exoskeleton, a motorizedgurney on wheels with three buzzing antigrav manipulators that floatedconstantly around the apt, tasting the air. It called itself "Tom." I didn'tcall it anything, and I limited my answers to it to monosyllables.
The next time I came on the guy who was Nicola Tesla in his chair, the letterwas in my pocket. I took a long swim in the ocean, and then I stripped off mymask and spit out the snorkel, took a deep breath and dove until my ears feltlike they were going to burst. I stared at my reflection in the silvered wall ofthe tank. Through the distortion of the water and the sting of the salt, my bodywas indistinct and clothed in quicksilver, surrounded by schools of alien,darting fish. I didn't recognize myself, but I didn't take my eyes away until mylungs were ready to burst and I resurfaced.
The guy who thought he was Nicola Tesla was still thrashing away at his strapswhen I climbed down from the ocean's top. At one side of Old Sparky, there was atimer, like the one on my apparatus, and a knife-switch for timed and untimedsessions.
I stared at him. My life unrolled before me, a life distanced and remote fromthe world around me, a life trapped in my own deepening battiness. Before Icould think about what I was doing, I flipped the switch from "timed" to"untimed." I took one last look at the ocean, looked again at Nicola Tesla, myfriend and seducer, stuck to his chair until someone switched it off again, andleft the 125th floor.
#
I took the apparatus apart in the kiddy workshop, stripped it to a collection ofscrews and wires and circuit boards, then carefully smashed each component witha hammer until it was in thousands of tiny pieces.
It took me two days to do it right, and not a moment passed when I didn't nearlyrun upstairs and switch off Tesla's chair.
And not a moment passed when I didn't visualize Tesla's wrath, his betrayal, hisanger, when I unbuckled him.
And not a moment passed when I didn't wish I could plug in the apparatus, swimin the ocean, take myself away from the world and the world away from me.
The Amazing Robotron returned at the end of the second day.
"Chet, I am glad to see you a-gain."
I bit my lip and choked on tears of relief. "I need to leave here, Robotron. Ican't stay another minute. Please, get me out of here. I'll do anything. I'llrun away. Get me out, get me out, get me out!" I was babbling, sniveling andcrying, and I begged all the harder.
"Why do you want to leave right now?"
"I — I can't take it anymore. I can'tstand being here. I'd rather be inprison than in here anymore."
"When I was young, I left the Cen-ter I was rais-ed in to attend coun-sel-ingschool. You are near-ly old e-nough to go now. May-be your pa-rents would letyou go?"
I knew he had found the only way out.
I started work on my father. I wheedled and begged and demanded, and he justlaughed. For three whole days, I used begging as a way to avoid thinking ofTesla. For three days, my father shook his head.
I cried myself to sleep and wallowed in my guilt every night, and when I woke, Icried more. I stopped leaving the apt. I stopped eating. My mother and I sat allday, staring out the window. I stopped talking.
One morning, after my father had left, I dragged a stool to the window andpressed my face against it. My mother clattered around behind me.
"Go," my mother said.
I gave a squeak and turned around. My mother had folded my clothes in a neatpile and had laid a canvas bag beside it. She had the vid remote in her hand,and on the screen was a waiver for me to go to school. We locked eyes for amoment, and I moved to go to her, but she turned and stormed into the kitchenand started to clean the cupboards, silent again.
I left that day.
#
The saucers lift off to-the-second on-time. The crowd, which has grown, sighscollectively as the saucers disappear over the haze, then a fine mist of solventrains down on our heads. It's as salty as sea-water, and the bat-house tremblesas it begins to melt. Streams of salty water course down its sides.
The top of the building comes into view, the saucers chasing it down as itdissolves, spraying a steady blast of solvent.
I tense as the building's top reaches what I estimate to be 150. My calves bunchand my breath catches in my chest. I feel like I'm drowning, and the building'stop crawls downwards, and my feet are sloshing to the ankles in dissolved foam,that runs off into the sewers.
I stay tense until the building's top is far beneath whatmust be 125, then Iexhale in a whoof of air. My head spins, and I brace my hands against my thighs.I'm not looking up when it happens, as a result.
The first sign is when the great tide of green, scummy, plant-stinking watercourses down over us, soaking us to the skin, blinding me and sending me reelingin reverie. Did I see hunks of dead, petrified coral crashing around me, or didI imagine it?
A brief second later the building's top emits a bolt of lightning that brokeeven Tesla's record for man-made lightning, recorded at nearly a kilometer inlength. A clap of thunder accompanies it, louder than any sound I have everheard, and it its wake I am perfectly deaf, submerged in silence.
The finger of lightning crawls through space like a broken-back rattler, and myhair rises from my shoulders. In the presence of so much current, I should bepetrified, but it is magnificent. The finger seeks and seeks, then contacts oneof the saucers and literally blasts it out of the sky. It plummets inslow-motion, and as it does, the building's top descends even further, and Iswear I see the chair falling from the building's edge, and the man strappedinside it had not aged a day in all the lifetimes gone by.
#
Chet's comm died somewhere in the lightning strike, but the emergency crews thattook him away and looked in his ears and poked him in the chest and gave himpills take him back to the Royal York in a saucer, bridging the distance in afew minutes, touching down on Front Street. The Royal York's doorman doesn't batan eye as he gets the door for him.
The elevator ride is fine. He is still wrapped in the silence of his deafness,but it's a comforting,centering silence.
Once Chet is back in his room, he fires up the vid and starts writing a letterto The Amazing Robotron.
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