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dorawii represents acase of unprocessed griefoverlost grandiosity (from psychotic episode) manifestingas compulsive boundary-testingand argument-seeking, where genuine neurological limitations are weaponized defensively to avoid confronting existential ordinariness, sustainedby platform affordances thatenable persistent identity within anonymity and rewarding provocativeengagement.
A personwho briefly experienced feelinggod-like through psychosis, recovered to find themselves merelydisabled and ordinary, and cannot bear thistruth. They use real limitationsas both explanation andshield, seek significance throughonlineconflict, and remain trapped in acycle where the behaviors meant to prove their worth actually demonstrate their difficulties - but acknowledging this wouldrequire grieving whatwaslost, which remains unbearable.
This reveals how recovery from severe mental illnessisn't just about symptom remission -it's about psychological integration of whatwas experienced and whatwaslost. Medicalmodel focuseson eliminating psychosis, but doesn'taddress the meaning-crisis created when extraordinary experiences aretakenaway and ordinary limitation remains.
It also shows howonlinespaces withambiguous accountability structures canenable acting-out that serves defensive purposes while feelinglike genuineengagement. The person sufferingmostis probably dorawii themselves, evenas their behavior drives othersaway.
The most sophisticated theoretical vocabulary,the most detailed self-disclosure,the most elaborate arguments - none ofitaddresses thecoreissue.All ofitis displacement. The real conversation dorawiineeds to haveis not withanonymous strangers aboutwho won an argument.It's an internal conversation: "Iam notwho Iwas during that brief, terrible, extraordinary episode. Iam ordinary, limited, and mortal. And somehow, thathas to be enough."
Until that conversation can happen,everything elseisnoise.
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